Friday, August 27, 2010

Keep it or let it go..?

Assalamualaikum and hello again..


   Yesterday, I had a fight with someone that really makes me sick ! He suddenly said that I've forgot him and going on with someone else.. And he also make me cried. Huhu... It's already been many times we had fight. I really don't know what's up with him now.. 

  This time, he said he wants me to forget him. But.. I really don't know. Its already been a long time I've planned this to let him go. At first, I really mad with him because of my exam results.. Then, we're good again. Day after day, we had so many troubles and fighting, etc. 

  He hurt my heart so many times... By now, I should have been hating him so much. But.. I can't hate him although I feel that he friends with me because he's just want to use me. It's really hard to make a decision.. Should I keep him or let him go..?



Thursday, August 26, 2010

My Expression For Today

"Aku bersusah payah untuk mengenali dirinya dan menerimanya dengan ikhlas.. Tetapi begini balasannya kepadaku.. Hati aku kecewa dan aku rasa sia-sia sahaja aku lakukan semua ini.. Aku akan move on.. tapi, aku takkan maafkannya walaupun dia datang balik kepadaku.."



Updated !

Assalamualaikum and Hello again :)


   Hmm, akhirnye berjaya juga aku update blog ini. Cantik tak layout-nye? Hihii . Kali ini aku buat sendiri. Ia mengambil masa yang singkat untuk renovate blog. Selalunya aku suruh Akak sedara aku, Sofea yang buatkan. Tapi kali ni aku buat sendiri. Hehe, segala tunjuk ajarnya, aku dah mahir buat sendiri.. hehehehe... (Thanks, My Sayang, Sofea, For teaching me ! )


  Okeylah.. singgah kejap jer ni.. Kerja bertimbun-timbun nak kena buat.. Bye and thanks for coming by! :D






Tuesday, August 24, 2010

I Found It Again

Assalamualaikum,

  Sudah lama aku tak update blog. Aku terlampau busy dengan kerja-kerja aku di luar sana. huhu. Tapi Takderlah terlampau sangat. (Juz Kidding)

  Huhu, Sudah lama aku menanti seseorang yang boleh membuatkan hati aku berbunga-bunga.. Biasalah.. Budak-budak remaja.. Mahu mengenali cinta.

  Hmm, Aku dah lama tak merasainya sejak aku putus dengan seseorang itu sehingga aku give up. Aku dah lama menahan kecemburuan aku... Akak-akak sedara aku dah ader couple, kawan-kawan aku pon ader... huhuu.. Tapi kan, sebenarnya couple ni tak penting.. Aku just mahu merasainya.

 Aku ni asyik tak tentu arah jer,, Kejap minat ni lah, kejap minat tu lah.. Haihh. Akhirnye, aku jatuh hati pada seorang budak PSS !

  Orangnye takdelah handsome sangat.. Biasa-biasa jer.. Nak katakan poyo boleh juge.. (Hihihii) Orangnye suke senyum.. Pendiam and nampak macam baik..

 Huhu, Aku plan nak berkawan dengan dia ! Tapi cammaner ek? Jadi ker kali ni? Harap-haraplah kali ni jadi.. Caiyok2..

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Flower..

If I were a flower,
Then now I'd be a bud
I shall treasure the beginning of my youth without any regrets..



Friday, August 13, 2010

Moody Inception

  The first I woke up in the morning, I felt something that is not right. I'm feeling up and down. Feel like wanna get mad and scream. Feel like wanna cry also have too. I really don't know why. Maybe I'm going to have my PMS.. Arghhh.. Moody days !

Thursday, August 12, 2010

12 August 2010

Assalamualaikum,

  Huhu . Hari ini merupakan hari kedua berpuasa . Kembali ke sekolah . Huhu, tak puas cuti sehari . Kalau boleh , nak seminggu or lama-lama . Hihihi

  Entahlah kenapa , hari ini aku berasa sangat marah dan moody . Penat and kemaruk pun ada ! . I don't know why . Macam kena PMS pulak . Huhu . Mundar-mandir ke sana-sini , Rasa macam nak give up bila aku hantar mesej kat orang tu tapi langsung tak balas... huhu

  Banyak orang kata aku ni dah tak ceria bila masuk bulan puasa ni. Sebelum puasa pun aku ganti puasa jugak . Tapi takderlah moody seteruk ini .

  Rasa macam up and down . Mula-mula dapat kertas sejarah yang markahnya cukup menggembirakan . Bila dapat kertas BM , moody balik . Hilang mood nak berceria . (This is all your fault !) Time balik kat dalam kereta , cakap tak tentu arah bila mak tanya . (Huhu , aku taw aku kasar )

  Tinggal lagi 1 kertas jer nak dapat.. KH... Arghhhh ! My biggest nightmare ! Ujian kali ni aku tak buat betul-betul berbanding Mid-year yang lepas.. Semangat aku kali ni tak ada . Harap-haraplah aku boleh kekalkan A . Aku takut jika akulah orangnya dikatakan yang mendapat 15 sahaja yang betul per 40. Harap-haraplah bukan aku..

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Terpesona...

Bulan Ramadhan sudah pun bermula. Umat-umat Islam bertungkus lumus untuk kerjakan ibadah sunat pada bulan yang mulia ini. Terutamanya untuk mendapatkan malam Lailatul Qadr (Betul keww spelling tuu? huhuu).

Tapi.. Kebanyakannya tak ramai yang melakukannya. Terutamanya melakukan solat Tarawih. (Hehe, aku pon sama ! :P) Ada yang sengaja tidak mahu pergi dan ada yang sibuk dengan kerja. (Mine's alasan lain ya ! ^_^)

Orang-orang zaman sekarang ni lain sikit. Solat 5 waktu pun cerewet. Ada yang sanggup solat last minute dan saja-saja tinggalkannya. Especially bila time at sekolah. Ada jugak pelajar-pelajar perempuan yang pura-pura uzur. Bukan itu sahaja.. Lelaki pun tak solat ! (bukan buat-buat uzur..) Diorang ada yang menyorok dan ada yang kata sibuk menolong cikgu,, padahal tak ponn..

Hmmm.. aku terpesona dengan sorang mamat ni. Tabik giler ! Rajin melakukan solat tarawih. (Orang bujang memang ler tak busy.. Tapi tengoklah mamat-mamat bujang sekarang.. Diorang rajin keww? ^_^) Huhu, aku baru sahaja mengenali mamat ini selama sebulan lebih.. (Agaknye laa.. Tapi dah jumpa pada tahun lepas !) Dia ni mualaf..(Baru masuk islam) Tapi rajin ! Huhuu,, kagumnyeeee ! (Tak macam aku.. Mak suruh, baru nak buat.. Ataupun bila ada exam, etc. buat solat hajat jerrr..)

Sepatutnya, orang-orang yang naturally born in Islam kene mencontohi. Buat malu jerr.. Mengalahkan orang yang baru join pulak.. Apa nak jadikk manusia zaman sekarang ni? (Hehe, Aku pun same ! Aku taw laa..)

Hmmm.. okeylaa. sampai sini jerr. sebenarnya banyak lagi nak citekan pasal mamat tu. Tapi takut bila mamat tu terjumpe blog ni, kembang teros dijadinye ! ukeyyy, bye !


Friday, August 6, 2010

6 August 2010

Assalamualaikum,

  Huhu . I am very frustrated . Frustrated again . But much Frustrated than yesterday . It's so sad to hear that I got C in English paper . Now, I got 2 Cs . Arghhhhhh ! I felt like wanna cry ! But when I went to the KH class, I'm cheered up again . Thanks to Pris, Anissa, Nita, Fatihah, Abu Ash, and Cikgu Md. Noor for making me happy again ! Alhamdulillah..

  Bukan tu jee . Aku rasa tenang jugak bila baca novel 'Senjakala' oleh Baharuddin Kahar . Rasa enjoy pulak membacanya.. Novel tu aku pinjam kat perpustakaan . Hari Rabu nanti kena pulang.. huhu . sempat ker nak habiskan ? Sekarang ni aku dah baca sampai bab 9.. Agaknye laa.. hik3

  Hmm.. Tinggal lagi beberapa hari jer nak sambut bulan Ramadhan . Minggu depan jerr... Ganti puasa pun belum habis.. D'oh! (Macammana ni?!) Tinggal lagi 6 hari.. Sempat ker ?

  Okaylah . Nak tidur awal ! Esok plan nak ganti puasa ! Kena ganti sekolah pulak tu... Huhu ! Sekolah agama pun kena datang.. aduhaii.. Takper2.. Dugaan.. Kata Ustaz Firdaus, Semasa mendengar tazkirah kat sekolah tadi, sebelum bulan Ramadhan ni banyak dugaan yang ditempuhi. Kita perlulah bersabar..

  Assalamualaikum... Dan selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

My Mistake..

Assalamualaikum.........................

I am very frustrated today after I got my Math paper...
So sad...
I got C this time :'(
Huhu... All this time I have never got C or B for Math paper..
This is the first time..
And I am so shocked..

  And I'm also mad because of my foolishness.. If I didn't online on the exam days... I won't get C for math.. And now, I can't blame Facebook or anyone else.. It's my own mistake.. It's no use for blaming anyone else.. huhuu

  I'm also realized now.. After this, I won't do it again and go harder to get the best. And I'm also planning to ignore someone.. huhu, that's my bigger weakness ! I can't even focus on the exam days.. It's time to forget and look forward. 

Gambatte kudasai ne~ !

                                    
Hampehh... Tapi takde gunanya ! huhuu

Teenage Dream

You think I'm pretty
Without any make up on
You think I'm funny
When I tell the punch line wrong
I know you get me
So I let my walls come down
Down

Before you met me I was alright but things
Were kinda heavy
You brought me to life
Now every February, you'll be my valentine
Valentine

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I, we'll be young forever

You make me
Feel like I'm living a
Teenage dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's run away and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back.

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now, baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back.

We drove to Cali
And got drunk on the beach
Got a motel and
Built a fort out of sheets
I finally found you
My missing puzzle piece
I'm complete

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I, we'll be young forever

You make me
Feel like I'm living a
Teenage dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's run away and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back.

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now, baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back

I'mma get your heart racing
In my skin tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight
Let you put your hands on me
In my skin tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight (tonight)

You make me
Feel like I'm living a
Teenage dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's run away and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back.

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now, baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back.

I'mma get your heart racing
In my skin tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight
Let you put your hands on me
In my skin tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight (tonight)



Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Tell...

If you love someone,
tell him or her..
Forget about the rules or the fear of looking ridiculous.
What is truly ridiculous is passing up on
an opportunity to tell someone that
your heart is invested in him or her..




Sunday, August 1, 2010

It's not fair !

  It's already two months now.. Recovered from a broken heart.. And I've let it go and I believe that there is no love between me and someone who doesn't love me but I adore him. Just like automatic, 'There's no real, love in you.. Why do I keep loving you?'


  Things getting better now.. We haven't talk for a long time too. He suddenly talk to me and we're good again. No more feelings than a friend. I'm happy about it..







  But.. something's not right. I felt jealous when he accept anyone else that is in same position with me. But.. Why he can't accept me? I'm very frustrated and I don't understand.. Like.. it's not fair.


  When I'm asking the question, he looks like want to run away and give me the same reason.. PRIVACY.. It's always the same.. Why everyone else can? Why can't I? It's not fair ! It's not fair!